Singing for a living
Hello My Lovely Angel Voice followers,
What a week it has been! Full of singing and joy.
The summer season of song and happiness in the sun is almost upon us, and our school has plenty to do and showcase this year, which after the last two years is one of the biggest things we, at Angel Voice Singing School, are really grateful for.
I have been talking a lot this past week with my friends and students about how I started my singing career. A conversation inspired by listening to a group of self-help speakers and motivators finding that one true love in their life and making it their job. I find people who have set out to do what they want, so inspiring,and their methods really interesting and it got me reflecting on my own start in my dream “job”, that really isn't a “job''. I thought, “You know it is probably time I shared how I started it all” and so here we are and hopefully you will feel inspired a little… (I say this, I am currently eating a sausage butty, and drinking tea in my pj’s, not vision of clarity for sure, although it is yummy haha).
The Beginning…
Let’s be honest… In case you haven’t read my other blogs yet haha… Singing gave me an identity. It is my career, no two ways around it. Singing stopped me from being the victim of my own life and made me the heroine of it instead.
After dedicating my life for several years to my children and my family, I have now got myself to a point where I can dedicate the rest of my life alongside my family, to my music and my dreams that I have had all my life.
At 24 I became pregnant with my eldest child, which was joyous news after I had lost my First son to stillbirth 4 and a half years previously, we were all very excited. I knew deep in my heart, I wanted my child to follow their dreams as an adult. I knew how important it was. I loved this unborn child so much that my heart was bursting to give them all the love and real advice that I could and protect them from the negativity that had surrounded me.
I knew when I found out I was pregnant, that I was bailing out on my own life, I was not being true to myself. Although I'd had vocal training, classical training in music through my violin, orchestra, gradings, choirs, my fear of making it my career was bigger than I had known. It had stopped me from pursuing a career as a professional musician, I did not want my child to know what that fear felt like.
This time, this pep talk was different from any other I had ever had with myself. I imagined looking into my 16 year old's face and, after listening to him (in my mind), ask me the question, “Did you follow your dreams, Mum?” I knew that I hadn't. and I realised I had to be brave enough to take that leap of faith in me. So with a courage in my heart founded by this passion that I felt at that moment, I entered a talent competition, a really big talent competition, in Longton, Stoke on Trent. I learnt three songs that I sang with a band that I'd never sung with before, to say I was nervous, well you can guess, but I blagged it, backstage I was cool, then I went out on to the stage under the bright lights and fell apart, thinking about it makes me laugh now. The band had sheet music, which turned out to be two keys higher than I had been practicing. I had no rehearsal with them so what the audience really witnessed was a rehearsal not a performance and it was bad because it was so totally blind.
So bare all of that in mind when I tell you… I went out on stage after they announced my name and I cried. I was heckled by somebody, and I cried even more. And I could see my mum and my nan and my dad in the audience and I cried haha. The band played and I sang. It felt good, even though I felt it sounded blooming awful.. I came 4th out of 10 acts of the 3rd heat, there were 10 heats in all, I did not get past the first stage. At the time it was a sign that I was awful, now I know it was a lack of performance knowledge.
My son was born six months later and I decided that it was still what I wanted to do even after that “disaster”. So I got my own P.A. kit and by the time my son was 2, I had rehearsed my songs and I went out and did my first gig up in Bolton. I was 26 years old when I finally made singing my career, truthfully I was scared every time I went out. There's no doubt about that. And I know I discussed that in my previous blog, performance anxiety should not stop you, it is a tool in many ways that helps you to find your true self. It is not the easiest road to travel, I know that myself, but it is rewarding once you beat it and overcome it.
Just as an FYI, my eldest son followed his dreams. And is now one of the top groundsmen in the country, building stages for big names and big festivals. And I'm very proud of him. And my youngest son is now taking his GCSEs, and is believing in himself, as a mum, that is all I could ever want.
How I managed my career as a professional singer…
Every time I went into the changing room before my performances, I would sit and look in the mirror, I would focus on breathing nice and steady. I would then have a little pep talk to myself, I would look myself in the eyes as I stared into the mirror and say, “Cathy, you are a great singer, you are a great performer, your audience loves you”. And I would have a little bit of a laugh with myself, and find something funny. I would check my set list, memorise it and then go out on to the stage, sometimes I would, if no one was around, do a cartwheel, just so I could own the stage. After that first song, after those first couple of words that were sung, the fear went. It always went and it always has. And I don't have that fear very often now.
Singing for a living when we just think about it, is scary. My vocal coaches were just a small part of my education, but my real education came when I went out into the world and allowed people to hear my voice.
Love or loathe my voice. If you're talking about it, I've inspired something. That is how I feel. As a vocal coach that is what I teach. Dare to have the nerves to be yourself. Let your voice be free by being brave. I coach on how to have the strength to be the best regardless of what anybody else is thinking or what anybody else is saying.
A few Little Tips I have learned on my life path to singing…
Here are a few little tips that I will give you, you can check that little list off if you're a list checker.
Remember, your voice is unique. Nobody sounds like you. You are unique. So “Free your voice!”. You know you want to.
Sending many blessings to all of you singing angels, may your voice be heard in unison with your dreams.
Cathy.